Late last week I realized that October 1st was fast approaching…
and that October 1st would mark my three years “blogiversary”.
And my first thought was simply…that’s interesting – it’s been three years?
Somehow it doesn’t seem that long.
And then I remembered that my first year I worked very hard at
not telling anyone I was blogging. I took me a while to gather my courage.
And little by little, a “Wise Well Woman” was born.
My next thought was… “Hey, that’s pretty cool!
Give yourself a round of applause and celebrate — WooHoo!”
But then I reconsidered, thinking “Oh…I guess I’m supposed to do something special…
have a special giveaway or some internet marketing promotion…”
And I have to admit, that thought quickly put a damper on my celebration.
You see, my blog began simply as an extension of my journal.
In the beginning, it was simply, and almost completely, just stream of consciousness writing.
Whatever I was thinking about as I explored this self-discovery, personal
development journey, I wrote about and shared here on my blog.
Once people started reading and listening, then I was suddenly propelled into
this new world of writing based on what I thought people wanted to hear
or what I felt it was my responsibility to teach. And that went along OK for a while.
But if I’m really honest, that has resulted in a kind of writers’ paralysis
that has gone on now for a few months.
So, on this blogiversary, I feel more like asking for your forgiveness,
for my lack of inspiration and consistent content, then I do feel like
throwing a big “mock” birthday party. And honestly,
I almost let the date come and go with no public announcement at all.
But the last few weeks have been different.
I’ve been “peeling the onion” (more on that later), and finding renewed commitment
and renewed courage to be vulnerable again.
It’s only through the practice of writing my internal dialogue — the
conversations with my Inner Wisdom and my Inner Critic —
that I’ve come to understand that the purpose of my evolution is grow
toward a state of joy and grace that comes from simply being and to
share that message with anyone willing to listen.
So today I celebrate my blogiversary by simply acknowledging “I AM” and
leaving the “shoulds” behind with my Inner Critic — at least for today.
And rather than just intellectualize that thought for myself… I’ve taken
some action and shared it here with you.
I give thanks for the process, the practice and the presence we share.
Wishing you well–
P.S. While taking a little personal inventory, I discovered that I
have gathered over 150 favorite quotes on the
Wise Well Women Facebook page. I intended to try to re-post them in
some form as a “gift” to you but ran out of time. So instead,
you can follow this link over to Facebook, and browse through them there.
I hope you’ll find them as inspiring for you as they continue to be for me.
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